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Confession

Tagged as: catfish, uni.

Written by trinay on October 11, 2014
Hi everyone!
It's been two years since I've posted anything and I was trying to find an old bookmark and stumbled across this instead. I'm not a very superstitious person but when I clicked the link and came across so many new blogs (albeit being just over one month old) I took it as a sign to confess.

I use my real name everywhere now but back when we were all on mmotales, I chose to call myself Annikabelle.

I still remember how I came up with it. Like everything, it started with Maplestory. I was playing on my first ever character called Bellosome (or something like that, I really liked that pokemon) when I met a girl with the ign annikaleong. I really, really liked her name, so I stole it used it as inspiration to create my new character Annikabelle after I realised clerics weren't really meant to have like 50 STR. That is how it came to be! Later on I was actually accused by that same character for stealing her name but I will deny that until my dying day.

I was actually really young when I started posting on MMOT. My first blog was a little one-liner with a screenshot of my character on an Ellinian-Orbis boat ride. The sad confession is that I was only about 10 or 11, but I lied a lot about my age. Possibly to protect myself from child predators, probably to just be cool and fit in with all these older kids who were over 13 and legally allowed to play MS. I met a lot of really nice people on MMOT, like Pirkid, SilverFX and many others whose names I can't remember because I am 19 now and my memory is starting to fail me :')

My posts on MMOTales began to taper off when I moved to the UK when I was 11 and eventually I stopped playing GMS and EMS altogether, but I was still pretty shaken when MMOTales was shut down. One day it was there, one day it wasn't and that was the end of a really long and formative chapter of my life. I didn't even get to save all of my blogs and I had so many. I weep when I think about the loss of SilverFX's 'Aurora's Redemption' stories and Indescane's bandit-sin stories, I should have printed them out and gotten them binded T____T;; Also Wolf(random numbers) insanely long stories! Please someone tell me there's a pdf floating around of these!

MMOT was the one thing I stuck to, longer than piano lessons and tennis and maplestory itself. I didn't actually keep in contact with my MMOTales friends because after I grew up a little bit more, I felt really really bad about deceiving people about my age. I think I am an honest person now and I'm not ashamed to use my real name everywhere, probably as a reaction to my old catfishing days (I love that show <3)

I don't really have very much else to say, except for sorry for lying about my age and hello to my old friends **all the hearts emojis**

moving on


Looking back at my old blogs here, I think my life now is quite a bit different from how I envisioned it to be.

I'm 19 now, I did well for my A-Levels but didn't secure an offer for Medicine. I worked in a pharmacy for 11 months and applied for Pharmacy on the last day of university applications. I secured 4 offers at very good schools and I just started at University College of London. I'm actually glad that I didn't reapply for medicine, though that was my dream for a very long time. I really hated when customers at the pharmacy showed me their toenail fungus and I was much happier when they asked me for recommendations for a persistent tickly cough. I'll come out after four years with a Masters and a secure profession and I will have to look at much less toenail fungus than if i was a doctor. Definitely a win

Somewhere along the way (january 18th) a random boy attached himself to me in the same way a male angler fish melts into a female.



He does Pharmacy in another London uni , but we all know that UCL pharmacists are the super pharmacists We met outside the train station in the small town we lived in and it's been almost 9 months now :) <3 <3 <3 **mushy romance sounds**

Obligatory uni post



I moved into halls exactly 3 weeks ago and tomorrow, I'm going to sign up for the flat swap list. Technically I live in a massive student house that was once a hospital, in clusters of flats. Mine has 8 people, 5 of them are socially awkward, 2 of them were having sex and 1 of them is me To be honest I could bitch about them forever and the way they find my rice cooker (1truluv<3) unacceptable. Our halls are non-catered and I have lost 2kg through the pot noodle and 'too-tired-to-cook' diet already >___< According to the BNF (pharmacy bible) I am the exact height and weight of a 12 year old child! I am actually really proud of this and have told everyone. (jk i want boobs T___T;~)

Happily though I have made lots of friends in my course and I hobo squat at their accommodations. Also I like pharmacy, so much so that I am typing a blog instead of typing my lecture notes. Honestly though we are legal drug dealers and if anyone quizzes me on drugs I'm going to flash them a cheesy grin and thumbs up and say 'trust me, I'm a pharmacist' :D

Like every typical fresher I've joined way too many societies. Muay thai, cheerleading, parkour, jiu jitsu and i went on an anime society teashop crawl today. I have an obsession and it needs to stop. My need to be a real-life ninja is strong though <3

bonsoir mes amis


I also do a french evening language course which is two hours every week. My first lesson was on Thursday from 7-9pm and I came back and cried to my flatmate about how much I sucked at french and how literally every other student in my class was a really clever post-graduate student and 25 and I was 19 and hadn't done french for 3 years. (DAVID I REMEMBER YOU SPOKE FRENCH HELP ME) The entire lesson was in french. We must have spoken about 6 english words during the whole time. What the hell is a conditional tense and why???? My mother made me sign up so we can go to Paris and have baguettes while speaking fluent french. Everyone knows Parisiennes speak English to foreigners though >o<;

being an extreme crybaby


I have been crying a lot this year. I remember really clearly back in April or May, I was sitting on the floor and staring at my bedroom wall and I just started crying. I couldn't stop until three hours later and I still don't know why. It started happening more and more and it stopped for a while, but this week it's been particularly bad. Yesterday my boyfriend came over and taught me how to cook pasta for dinner because I hadn't eaten in like two days. I randomly woke up with conjunctivitis yesterday after the intense crying session on Thursday so I was upset, blind and in pain through two hours of lectures and a two hour workshop. Later on at night we had post-pasta cuddling and I started crying. I was never able to articulate what I felt when I was crying but yesterday I said it was like someone was squeezing my throat and my brain very hard. Then like always, I stopped and felt absolutely fine. I don't feel emotionally exhausted or anything, it was literally like the crying never happened and my emotions are stable. It's actually so puzzling to me, because I don't really have any real reason to be so sad. I have friends, I keep on top of my classwork, I really love my parents and my boyfriend and I have an amazing relationship (<3 <3 <3 **more mushy romantic sounds**).

My doctor recommended me for cognitive behavioral therapy because she thinks I have some hidden trauma but I don't know how it would help and there's a 3 month waiting list. My uni offers CBT freely but if I genuinely have a mental health problem it would affect my fitness to practice (FTP is a weird thing for healthcare professionals which assesses your competence and whether you would be a danger to society). I don't really know what to do and it isn't fair to my boyfriend to have to suffer through it with me- he has his own significant problems and I don't want to burden him.

**chinese old man sigh**

Normally when I'm not a crying mess I am a tiny chinese girl who likes cute things and pink. I like learning about drugs and I have a selfie stick. Also I have pink-eye. Hmu **peace sign emoji** let's exchange instagrams and hamster butt pictures! <3 <3 <3 (also I feel super bad about the whole lying about my age thing but I honestly had the best time when I was annikabelle :( Lying is really exhausting and I'm not a very good liar)



random goals I hope to achieve by my next blog post:
no longer have pink eye
stop crying a lot
be the greatest at french
not be shunned for being annikabelle T_T </3
learn how to make salmon teriyaki onigiri instead of buying them at the sake shop all the time

<3 bye bye

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Mon Oct 13, 2014 04:42 AM +

Aye, those were the days... Still sometimes crestfallen that MMOTales is gone...

But it's good to see this place spark up every now and again. Except when a certain someone spams Facebook to force people to blog...

 
 
Tue Oct 14, 2014 02:32 PM [Edited 4 times ] +

^ LOL. Worth.

On topic wise though, I believe we were just talking about you. Well, not like talking about you, you, but the Annikabelle moniker and where that person went. Or maybe that's just Cheeze's post. Also, that would make you the same age as Dest as when you joined. Maybe even younger. Anyway, I don't think anyone? legitimately cares about that...

Probably the best actual "blog" since this masterpiece.

Can't really help you with French, it's been ages that I've actually done anything frenchy, moving on to learning Spanish now. Lo siento.

And is that your hamster? Or is just just a random hamster butt.

P.S. onigiri is really easy if you can get the ingredients. :3 Also, PLEASE EAT. I regret not eating all the time. Also the high emotional levels are probably fairly standard?.. for Uni anyway, especially in a difficult program. Not sure about the crazy amount of crying though. I only cry when people I really like die in anime.

But yo, London, that's pretty cool.

EDIT: @Vusys So apparently putting accented characters in a comment make the comment not show up at all. Is that an easy fix? @__@

 
 
Wed Oct 15, 2014 12:46 AM +

Holey shit. I was 15 when i started on MMOT and I was convinced you were older than I was.

 
 
Wed Oct 15, 2014 12:56 AM +

Wow, you came back almost 2 years from your last appearance. You overshot by 4 days, tsk.

 
 
Wed Oct 15, 2014 02:00 AM +

Holy shit, how did you even find VuTales? Is there like a link or something or did you already know about it? Regardless, sup and again holy shit I thought you were older than me..

 
 
Wed Oct 15, 2014 10:15 PM +

You're younger than me? holy moly.
I thought you were older than me since you were part of the really tight older group on MMOT.
WELCOME BACK THOUGH

 
 
Thu Oct 16, 2014 03:33 AM +

Of mental age, you were probably on par if not better than most of us anyway.

 
 
Thu Oct 16, 2014 03:31 PM +

Holy fuck, would ya look at that, pretty much the whole gang's here now. Gotta get the ol' wrecking crew back together sometime and roll on some fools.

 
 
Fri Oct 17, 2014 08:07 PM +

Hi everyone! <3 <3 <3 thanks for reading my super long blog

@darkness I wish VuTales could be more active! Though it is pretty unreasonable of me to ask that when I have been away for two years :') Let's make a new golden age of blogging here c: I was a very serious pre-teen, I think that I was more mature then than I am now :)

@David Spanish is a really useful language, I should really do it but I picked French because of how it pretty it sounds <3 <3 <3 If I could smuggle a hamster into my uni halls I would take authentic hamster butt pictures! Unfortunately this pic is just from the hamster butt fanpage (I know it's really weird shh) I don't think there is a danger of not getting onigiri ingredients in London, we have so many Chinese, Japanese and Korean supermarkets! It's just my own lack of culinary prowess stopping me from trying >_< I cry when people I like die in anime too! I remember you used to do a lot of cool MMVs and hacked a lot :D

@Gujju oh my gosh no way haha! I think I was much better at pretending to be a serious16/17 year old then actually being a responsible 19 year old now :') I remember you from MMOT! You are very cool

@FunnyFroggy I noticed that too! Happy anniversary to my account :D

@Dest1 I remember ages ago Aaron (I think) messaged me on msn (rip) about VuTales shortly after the downfall of MMOT. I've been quietly lurking ever since! I remember your first few blog posts hahaha, they were very cute!

@DarkDragoon Yess I remember you! I can't believe I'm younger than you though *o* I just joined MMOT early and was kindly taught how to blog more than a one-liner by the older group :) I think some people knew i was much younger than I was though :)

@MasterCheeze I am ready to roll on some fools! <3

 
 
Mon Oct 20, 2014 08:20 AM +

bah, les vrais francophones vivent aux Quebec esti!
but seriously as someone who grew up biligual, I STILL don't get french verbs and I probably never will.

 
 
Fri Oct 31, 2014 12:30 AM [Edited once ] +

Don't worry about the lying. Everyone did as a kid. I was a 25 year old black lawyer named Kylie on a couple Maplestory private servers as a kid.

PS French sucks.
OH AND I ALSO ENJOYED THIS BLOG AND READ ALL OF IT. I DONT WANT THIS POST TO BE ONLY NEGATIVE SO I INCLUDED THIS. YOU SOUND REALLY NICE.

 
 
Sun Nov 02, 2014 09:59 PM +

Nass said: bah, les vrais francophones vivent aux Quebec esti!
but seriously as someone who grew up biligual, I STILL don't get french verbs and I probably never will.


Your French is still seriously much better than mine! I really need to work harder at it When are you going to blog again? Your blogs are always the best :D

Dustin said: Don't worry about the lying. Everyone did as a kid. I was a 25 year old black lawyer named Kylie on a couple Maplestory private servers as a kid.

PS French sucks.
OH AND I ALSO ENJOYED THIS BLOG AND READ ALL OF IT. I DONT WANT THIS POST TO BE ONLY NEGATIVE SO I INCLUDED THIS. YOU SOUND REALLY NICE.


Haha oh wow! I'm glad I'm not the only one French seriously sucks, it's more difficult than it needs to be sometimes Thank you for reading my blog!

 

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