Growing up, I was always the tough tomboy that would be like one of the guys. I talked like a guy. I dressed like one. I even looked like one if I really wanted to. No one would ever tell the difference. I was treated as if I were a guy as well. My male friends would punch me in the shoulder or talk to me about girls they've slept with and it didn't gross me out one bit. In fact, if it was funny, I'd laugh. I never bothered me if they thought I was a girl or a boy, I guess. As long as they were my friends. Who knows? Maybe them not knowing I was a girl was probably for the best anyway.

I was so much like a guy, and so used to having guy friends, that I found that being friends with girls was so....boring. Usually they talked about their looks, about guys, latest trends, going to a party or something stupid like that. But while they thought about those things, I thought about video games, staying at home, peace and quiet, anime, pepsi and food. Delicious, delicious food...
So I never liked hanging out with them. Besides, they always said the same things to me.
"Liek omgz, let us liek...givez u a makeovurr."
And then I would respond with: "How about I give you a makeover with my fist, girlie?"


The only times anyone would noticed I was a girl or be reminded I was a girl were those rare times I actually dressed like a girl. Sometimes I would do it for the lulz, but more often than not, I would attract unwarranted attention. So it's extremely rare that I dress that way. I'm more comfortable when my body isn't being strangled to death by tight clothing anyway.

If you're wondering how they never noticed I was a girl despite my large breast size, it was because I wear a lot of baggy clothing and hoodies and they conceal my chest well. Very effectively.

I'd consider myself a really boring person too I guess. I mean, I'm not a fan of big parties. I just find all the racket and annoying drunk people just so irritating. I have little patience so I prefer not to go unless I'm obligated to. I'd rather just have small quiet get togethers. Drive around a bit and go to different places and hang out and chill. Or sitting around playing games together until our fingers bleed.
I fail at dancing anyway and I don't like embarassing myself at parties like that and I hate being the wall flower.
I can make dirty jokes with guys and they'd laugh. If I did that with girls they would just look at me funny. I can scratch my ass, pick my nose, fart AND pick my wedgies around guys and they wouldn't be bothered about it. They'd laugh when I'd fart though but we do that with everyone who farts. I can eat the way I want to. Because we all eat messy and we all love stuffing our faces with food. I'm a petit girl with a fat chick appetite. Heh. I have a pretty dirty mouth too and I curse a lot.

Despite all that, I still have some tendencies that bring out my more feminine side.
Like...I'm afraid of spiders. Especially big hairy turantulas or spiders with really super thin legs and are all long and stuff. *Shiver*
And I'm scared of roller coasters and I have virtigo. I also despise the feeling of falling. It almost makes me cry.
I'm a very sensetive person so I get my feelings hurt easily but I'm also as stubborn as a mule.
I'm also really shy around people I don't know and I get nervous when I'm traveling alone in areas I don't know.
I'm scared of driving too. My sense of direction is a big heaping pile of doggy doo so I get lost easily, even around the corner from where I live.
I can't do complicated math to save my life. So I'm basically somewhat of an idiot.
I like it when people talk to me and share their feelings with me so that I can better understand them because I believe communication is something vital in a relationship. Romantic or otherwise.
I really like animals and I want to own a big dog and a cat someday. I like sitting in beautiful grassy areas and parks and I love flowers. Lastly, I have a love for stuffed animals. Especially pillow pets. Just yesterday I went shopping for some food for the week with my boyfriend and I saw the boxes of pillow pets. I started jumping up and down begging him to buy it for me since I was buying the food. He didn't want to at first but he gave in. I sleep with it every day now. I got the blue dolphin. <3
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Does that make me weird? That I'm a 20 year old tomboy with a secret love for stuffed animals?
Well I am a GIRL after all I suppose. But it so fucks up my tough girl image. Not that I'd want to keep up an image for myself anyway. I don't care much for that. Some people have said that I'm the perfect ideal girlfriend for a guy. Because I can relate to any dude and have the same likes to the point where a guy can be comfortable around me but feminie enough where he doesn't feel gay and can feel like he can take care of me and be all manly with me. Which I would like of course.

What do you guys think?

'Till next time.

~ Jaz