Alright, I am only posting here so I have some way to express myself. You may think I'm being overly dramatic, an idiot, whatever. I don't really care. I just need to get this out
somehow and currently there is no person in my life I can do that to, other than the person this Blog is about... And what I want to talk to her about is this problem, which she is a part of in a huge way. So, here we go. Get ready for total drama-shit.
Alright, so there are three main characters here:
GF1: My first girlfriend
GF2: My second girlfriend
Me: Me
So as some of you may recall, I was with GF1 for awhile. It was nearly 2 years, I believe. Anyways... I ended it, being the fucker I am. So after 2 months, I started to date GF2. It was going great, until
someone (*cough*myself*cough*) hinted to GF2 that I still had feelings for a certain girl... So GF2 ended it, and now I'm here... Girlless...
BUT, for the past month and a half I have been talking every night on the phone with GF1, and we have come along far. I've asked her if she wanted to get back together with me, and she answered with:
GF1 said: No. I am not ready yet.
Now... For me, this comes across as
"No I do not want to date you again. I don't love you anymore"... I've told her I felt like that, but she says she still loves me, she just wants to wait a bit before going "there" with me again.
Now... I've been thinking about moving to Saskatchewan (I live in BC right now) for awhile now. And now she is taking this as "I don't love you." and she's getting mad at me for it. I've told her I want to move, but I won't because I think I have another chance with her, but now she is thinking about never giving me another chance so I can "have what I want", which in her mind is me moving to Saskatchewan, even though what I
really want is to date her again.
So now I'm confused... She's the most confusing thing I have ever seen or talked to. Nothing she does makes sense to me. Is it really worth it? I don't know. I know I love her, I just don't know if this is all worth it. She's said that if I do have another chance, it will be in a couple years. Should I really have to wait that long?
Blech... This probably made
no sense, but I just had to get it off my chest, even if it is to a couple of guys on VuTales

If you have
any advice or shit, please post :)